So that day has finally arrived...our last day in this house together. Everyone is all packed, well kinda, and just preparing to part ways later today. This experience for me personally has been pretty rewarding but def bittersweet. I had a lot of fun moments but it was fo sure accompanied by drama and crazy bullshit. I'm just glad the 8 of us went through it together and made it to the end. Finally coming around and dealing with things with lauren and the abortion and I'm beginning to feel a bit better about the situation rather than feelings of guilt and heartache. I love that girl and will continue on with an amazing relationship with her after my time here in Chicago. It'll be a long distance thing for another month or so then in October she is relocating to Indiana to be with me so I'm BEYOND excited about that!!! But yea, thanks UOR for letting me a part of this experience and I wish all my housemates the best of luck! I love each and every one of you cunts haha xo
I honestly cannot begin to write a novel here because as cheesey as this sounds im really sad and do not want this to end. I just feel so numb and empty and just lost I guess.. I came here thinking yea it'd be fun and that I'd make a friend or two but never expected to meet such amazing people. Yea we fought all the time and hated the shit out of each other at different points throughout this journey but honestly I would not trade it all in for the life of me. I could not have asked for a better group of people to share this experience with. To Fai and Jarrod especially I'm so sorry for all the shit I said and I how I treated you two and instead of being judgemental I should have taken the time to really know and appreciate you. I'm glad the 8 of us all became super close in the end though. It would have been shitty to leave on a bad note but in the last 2 weeks since France, we really became a family. I love these people so much! To Jarrod again, I thank GOD you are ok and healthy after the incident. I have never been SO fucking scared in my life!! I can just say I'm glad justice is served and that guy has been caught and gotten what he deserved. I'm just so happy you are alive and well and here with us today! Also Luke, my baby, I love you so SO much, thank you for being an AMAZING friend in this house!!! I COULD NOT HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT YOU! You were my partner in crime throughout all the craziness for sure and I love you for that. I'd say you and I have really grown together since May and have really figured out who we are and how to effectively deal with various issues in our lives...and to Aary honestly thanks a lot for all the caring and compassion you shown to me even when I was resistent. Youve helped me deal with this eating disorder and pushed me to seek help and because of that I am doing SO much better til this day! I want you to know that I will continue on in bettering my health and lifestyle and that I love you for all you have done. To the rest of my roomies, you guys are awesome and I will forever remember you and keep in touch! All my love season 7
Is it really over? Already? Fuck YES! Dude, as sad as I really am, the one thing I can 100% say is that I am SO HAPPY to get the FUCK out of Chicago! Honestly this experience has been good and there have been a lot of fun moments but all in all, Chicago fucking sucks. Not the actual city but a major chunk of the people that inhabit it. I've never had to deal with as much hate and bullshit in my life than I have had in the last 3 months. Absolutely unneccesary. And that shit that happened to jarrod this past weekend, WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT!?! Granted jarrod was drunk and wasn't making the best decisions he had no right to get stabbed! That really shocked and scared the hell out of me. I never wanna relive that moment EVER in my life but I am just so relieved he is ok and alive. That incident really allowed Jar to become vulnerable, let his guard down and really for once open up and let us all in. For the first time I really saw how much good he had inside of him and how much he has been holding in. Despite our differences in the past, I love that guy and really do have a lot of respect for him. I love all of my roomates and was so lucky to spend my summer with em. Going back home a changed man, a more tolerant and patient man, a more optimistic and open guy, a more grateful man. Thank you all for watching and supporting :)
Since I've apparently come off as such a judgmental and self righteous jerk for a majority of the time here in Chicago, I want to take time out and just reflect on the good in each of my housemates:
Aary: Obvious best friend in the house, will remain amazing friends after today on forward, learned a shitload from you, you made me laugh, I really appreciated your presence in the house, you're wild, crazy and loud and just all around FUN, I love the shit out of you!
Luke: You southern hottie! haha, great listener, very loyal and open, true to yourself and who you are as a person which is so admirable, verrrrry sweet and caring, honest, positive energy and just very determined and hardworking! Love you boo!
Mikey: Funny funnnnny boy, you deserve your own sitcom! Down to earth, chill, big bro type! You and lauren are adorable together and I have nothing but the most respect for you and your morals in life!
Bre: Our rocky moments aside, I loved having you around in the house! you are very beautiful, smart, sassy and an amazing drunk hahah! I admire and applaud your journey and growth this summer and wish you all the best in continuing your path to being healthy. Continue to keep those boys drooling over you ;-)
Fai: We did not really get to know one another until the last couple weeks but even that I'm grateful for. The arguments were lame and petty and couldve been avoided. I love your high energy, optimistic outlook and approach to life, you're humorous carefree nature. I especially respected you in the whole incident with Aary and how you were the bigger one and allowed her to remain in the house..that took a lot of strength and heart and for that you are a good person :)
Nick: Oh nick, of course there had to be that one boy in the house that made me go nuts and make my emotions go flip flop but in the end I hate you. haha no, youre an awesome guy and are incredibly intelligent, wise, witty and charming. Although we had awkward moments between us, I still value your friendship and hope to keep you in my life. keep making others smile!
Jar: Jarrod oh Jarrod..first and foremost I am very glad that you are alive and well and was able to make it through the trauma. I have grown to really like you and appreciate you. Yes we probably had the most differences and conflict in the house but in the end i finally got to see who Jarrod really is and where he is coming from. I just apologize for all the bad shit I said in the past and hopefully this could be a turning point. Just try and let people in more and be less abrassive and you will continue to go places and do great things!
This summer has been a life changing experience and I would do it again in a heartbeat. A quick thank you and appreciation to Q and Andrea for working with us at Windy city Records and really mentoring us. That job hands down was the most fun job ive EVER had and I really enjoyed it! I enjoyed it so much that I want to continue on in the music pr industry back in Nyc; truly rewarding! Thank everyone for supporting and seeking interest in our lives as well..even thanks to the assholes who made our lives here in Chicago a living hell; you ultimately made us stronger and helped make for more juicy moments for tv so you did more good than harm, lame asses...anyway for the final time, it's been fun!
There always has to be that slow last minute bitch who still hasn't finished packing and is nowhere near done and that happens to be me hahah so i can't write for too long. But the last three months have been an intense rollercoaster ride of emotions. I fell in love with a gay guy, had my car vandalized, had a street bitchout fest with some homeless crackhead, signed up and coming musical talent in Detroit, attended anger management and went to France. Yeaaa...this summer was kinda productive lol..But I'm gonna miss everyone SO SO much. The 8 of us went from hating each other's guts to loving one another so it just sucks that it has to end already. I'm returning home happy, fulfilled and just finally feel like I've done something with my life! Turning 21 in a couple of days and this experience is only the beginning to a new awesome life! Thanks UOR xoxoxo
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ITS DONE, ALL DONE!!!! what a ride huh? So ok, as much as I did not get along with some of these people, like it or not, they all hold a very special close place in my heart. All 8 of you motherfuckers hahah...Aaralyn for that loud high pitched voice and our love affair LOL, Breanne for not EVER letting me fucking sleep at night and for being the bestest friend ever, Serah for her hilarious comebacks during arguments and her strong confident nature, Mike for his constant entertainment in the office and his ability to make light of any bad situation, Nick for being the gayest straight man and for being an awesome older brother figure to me, Faizahl for actually being the most insane person in America and for being very open and fun and finally Jarrod for transforming to most hated to most cared about and showing his true sensitive side! I love all of you! If the UOR7 tattoo we all got doesn't show true love and friendship then I don't know what the fuck does haha, but honestly I really enjoyed being part of this! Season 7 is kinda a huge deal!